THE MISSION BEGINS
1994 - 1995
Swami Ajay: “When all these events happened, it was very difficult for me to understand myself. I did not receive a clear vision of what I had to do, what had to be done, or why all this is happening with me. I did not even know the form of our beloved Bhagawan. I had never been to India either. But all that happened… this explanation on my story, I only give it sometimes… It's really rare because people don't accept the truth.
And for me, it was very strange. Every day, groups came to do bhajans... They asked me to do Arati. I didn't even know how to perform Baba's Arati! Because at that time, I did not know when to turn around to share the light and the Divine energy of this flame. I knew nothing about the teachings of Swami, beloved Bhagawan baba. I didn't know much. I only knew prayer… I only knew the manifestations of God. I only knew how to talk to God from heart to heart. But all of these things like Arati, prayers, Kirtans, Vibhuti, respect towards God, devotion… I don't know nothing of that matter ! I was doing it my way, I had no vision of how to do, no idea of what to do.
The only thing I knew for sure was that a lot is happening to my body and a lot of people come to my house. Sometimes, a lot of people came. I felt happy: people know me, ok, they fall into my arms, ok, they touch my feet, ok… but I didn't know anything. It was after a week that something truly happened to me. "
BABA COMMUNICATES
“After a week, the groups kept coming. I started seeing Swami a little more often. He is standing in the prayer room at this time. There was still no chair for Swami in the prayer room. We had not put a chair for Swami yet… and then, I started writing. He was talking to me. I was reading on his lips because I only saw them moving. He explained everything to us: For about ten days, the same thing happened every day. I wondered why Swami was standing and not sitting.
I would sit in silence, vibhuti would come out of my body and I would see Baba standing in front of me, when I was alone or during bhajans. I received messages in English with my eyes closed... His lips were just moving and I was reading the messages; Baba's words came out of his mouth and formed a script which I copied. I did not know, at that time, what I was writing. Because I was deep in meditation: It lasted 10 to 15 minutes and only after I woke up would I discovered what I had written, by re-reading myself. He told us how to do bhajans, how to sit. So it was through meditation, I started to understand what he was saying. And I started to write in Creole. This is the language mostly used in Mauritius.
About the chair… you have to put a chair. People have to sit in such a way. So many changes, so many preparations, how to sit properly in Bhajan Hall, where to place the chair, what to do...
(Telugu is the mother tongue of Shri Sathya Sai Baba but Swami Ajay can neither understand it nor speak it and therefore even less write it since there is a different alphabet for Hindi and Telugu.)
All these things, Swami told me and I wrote them down on paper.
But a few people were there with me... And when they read the message, they said: “no, that's actually wrong. That's not true. ” But the same message kept coming every time... Swami kept talking to me. He was standing there and he continued to talk to me. The second message came, this time it was in French. People did not accept this message either. The third message came in English. Again, they did not recognize the message as truth. The fourth message came in Hindi… but people still weren't accepting it. Eventually the fifth and last message came in Telugu. "
“I wrote this message in Telugu. Once and for all people had to accept it because I don't know Telugu. I don't speak Telugu.
And to read this message, someone from the village had to come to decipher: he read the text. He explained to everyone what Swami wanted to do here.
So, in this message, it was written:
"Swami's chair should be placed here for Swami to sit. "
All about the altar, all that. An important thing to know is that in Mauritius, at that time, people used to place the men on the left and the women on the right to sing Bhajans. But Swami explained: “ Men should sit on the right and women on the left." because in Prashanti Nilayam, in the Bhajan Hall, the men sit on the right and the women sit on the left. Swami says that we should sit this way. Why ? the people in Mauritius did not explain to us at the time – and I did not know – that there were two types of halls in Prashanti Nilayam:
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a Hall called the Darshan hall, where the women are on the right and the men are on the left
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and a Hall called the Bhajan Hall where the men are on the right and the women are on the left.
For every little thing, there is a meaning… and Swami has given us that meaning in the written message.
There were so many people, yet they didn't know! "
BHAJAN HALL
DARSHAN HALL
" Why is the women's line first? Why are they sitting on the right (Darshan Hall)?
And why, here, in the Bhajan Hall, are the men on the right and the women on the left?
For everything there is a meaning… so Swami gave this explanation in the letter: “I am Lord Narayana. I am Shiva. I am Shiv-Parvati. Just as Lakshmi remains at the Lotus feet of Lord Narayana, Parvati always remains at the Lotus feet of Shiva. It's the same for all the ladies who come here: they are my Lakshmi. When I leave my house, they touch my feet, every time – but they do so in the name of our beloved Lakshmi. In my Bhajan Hall, Lord Vishnu always stays on the right and his wife always stays on the left. For this reason, we say: the woman stays on the left side. It is for this exact same reason that in the Bhajan Hall, all the men – who represent Lord Vishnu – are seated on the right…and the ladies are seated on the left. "
For each thing, Swami gave us an explanation .
It wasn't easy but my big brother did everything and the chair was put up and decorated with flower garlands… but still, Swami wouldn't sit. He said: “ There are flowers on the chair, I can't sit down." When they were removed, Swami sat down on the chair. We have understood that it is not necessary to put a garland on the chair because Swami must be able to sit on it... So the chair must be available and the place must be clean, like when you invite someone.
At this time, the work began with transformation. Changing the way of thinking – that was the first step.
You should know one thing : after the death of my father in 1976, my brother entered the temple. From that time until the Bhajan Hall was set up, people did not know what an Akhanda Bhajan was... Before 1994, ladies in Mauritius were not even allowed to do Arati !! So the way we did Arati also had to change – it was the first time this had happened in Rivière du Rempart. In this place ! Because Swami asked that… so at that time, we started doing Arati this way : a man + a woman doing Arati together. Most often, it is a couple. And until now, it's like this. Now, the same idea has spread everywhere. In France, Portugal, England… for all groups wishing to do the Arati during a reunion. "
FIRST MISSION : departure to Rodrigues
“ That's not all, Baba makes me write that I have to go to Rodrigues right away. The first message came on December 25, Christmas Day, and Rodrigues is an island very close to Mauritius with a predominantly Christian population. It takes an hour and a half by plane to get there. Baba tells me to go there with a group. But people don't believe me... I received the penultimate message on December 31, 1993. In this message, Baba told me again that I had to go to Rodrigues. I asked Swami : “ how could it be possible to go to Rodrigues when nobody knew me there and he There was no Hindu, no devotee of Sai Baba on this island ? ” But he repeated: " You have to go to Rodrigues." and he gave us a specific date. People were saying : “It is not possible, Ajay is lying, giving false messages. How can Swami ask to go to Rodrigues ? If we have to leave, let's go to India. What are we going to do in Rodrigues ? … "
So Swami gave us a second date and again we failed to leave. A third time, Baba gave the message: “ you must go to Rodrigues for your Christian brothers. ” He gave a third departure date : January 16, 1994, specifying that it was not important to leave in large numbers but that it was essential to askland our feet in Rodrigues. We had to leave and for the rest :
“I'll be with you, don't worry."
These are the words that he spoke. Finally, people agreed to leave... but the day before the departure, there was a cyclone. Swami gave this date... We are two hours from the take-off and the cyclone is a class 3 in Mauritius, class 4 in Rodrigues. Suddenly, the class 3 alert is removed in Mauritius... but the alert is still maintained in Rodrigues. So it was still impossible to leave. However, a few moments after, there was no more alert !! The boats could not leave but a plane took off anyway and we left with fifteen people. We arrived in Rodrigues, as there was no more cyclone – not even a class 1. The weather was calm, sunny. No disturbance in Rodrigues. There is no ashram there, but a family welcomed us into their home. When we arrived, we learned that the cyclone had completely disappeared... that is the work of Swami ! People had made contacts in Rodrigues and someone came to pick us up there. We went with the group to Port Mathurin, to a lady's house. She ushered us into a reception room. I placed pictures of Baba on the bedroom walls and they all started manifesting vibhuti and amrita not even fifteen minutes after I hung them.
Many people came to watch the materializations, which continued to increase until today in Rodrigues. When the lady came to see, she started crying and all the people started crying… the manifestations continued non-stop. We sang bhajans, we made several visits to hospitals and orphanages. We stayed in Rodrigues for a week, we did several bhajan sessions. Talking to people, explaining who Baba was. People asked to receive sacred ashes (vibhuti), sacred water… Then, we developed the programs all together spontaneously and we returned to Mauritius a few days later. And now, there is a center in Rodrigues and there are more devotees than before. "
ON MISUNDERSTANDING AND CRITICISM
“With everything that happened, I had problems with my family and it took me about twenty years to transform the situation. Now, my family members have changed, they are sad to see me leave when I go to Europe. They like me to be there and to talk to them. They participate in certain activities to help me. When we keep distance, hatred and jealousy develop… In general, it teaches us that it is better to stay close to others so that bad thoughts do not manifest themselves towards you. "
" It is true that these are very strange things. It doesn't happen everywhere, it's quite rare. People can't really understand, and God did it all on purpose. He talked about something (in speeches and books), but at the same time he does this… He tells you not to be mean, yet he brings in evil people in front of you. It's always the case. How are we going to understand all this ? … it is not easy. At that time, people used to tell me : “ Vibhuti is wrong. Materializations are wrong. ” but today, it's no longer about Vibhuti : today, money manifests. At that time, you were saying : “ that's wrong. Amrita is wrong. ” - today, it's not just about Amrita anymore. Amrita has transformed into buildings… there are buildings growing, now. We build a lot of things. At that time, you were talking about medals, pendants… today, travel is growing everywhere. How is all this possible ?
It's just between God and me. Never for publicity. Nothing else…
I am someone who is not accepted by many people in Mauritius. No one is a prophet in his own country. It will stay like this, forever. If you see that what I am doing is good, then it is good. Mauritians see that what I'm doing is not good, so it's not good… You decide what you want to take or not, I'm not interested.
I give you what he gives me, that's all. "
OTHER TYPES OF MATERIALIZATIONS
In addition to Amrita and Vibhuti, Swami Ajay begins to materialize sacred stone eggs called Lingams and Saligrams, by mouth or by hand. He can now manage and trigger the materialization of sacred objects, such as Rudraksha seeds for example. This type of materialization requires a lot of energy and concentration ; he only materializes when necessary for spiritual advancement, according to the inspiration he receives at the time.
About the materializations, he remains extremely humble and discreet. He asserts : “ it is Baba who decides because it is his gift. These are for the transformation of mankind... It doesn't matter if people believe it's true or not, the truth is there and it speaks for itself. But it's good when people see that God can use humans and their bodies as his instruments, for his mission and according to his Will. "
The Divine manifestations are both a source of suffering and of profound blessing for the holy soul who is their receptacle; just like the stigmata of Christ in the Saints. Indeed, the instrument sacrifices his body and his life in the service of God, obeying his orders with total and disinterested abandon. He is also the subject of much criticism and accusations from those around him. Only he who experiences them can know the depth of these materializations and of his own relationship with God...
Types of events and materializations that happened since 1993:
- the appearance of Amrita (Divine Nectar, similar to honey)
- colored powders such as kum-kum (spices and colored powders)
- the materialization of Lingams and Saligrams (sacred stone eggs)
- Vibhuti (fragrant sacred ash which has miraculous properties)
- other objects – jewelry, statues, raw rice, dragees, water or even caramels.
“ He who previously came as Shirdi Sai Baba has come back as Sathya Sai Baba ! Also, the 'Sai' come in series : after this another will come, he will be called Prema Sai and will be born in the Mysore area. "
- SRI SATHYA SAI BABA
WHY DOES SUCH MATERIALIZATIONS HAPPEN ?
The materializations of Vibhuti (sacred ash) and Amrita on the physical body of Swami Ajay do occur on certain occasions and in particular during his meditations, since 1993. These manifestations are quite unusual because they generally occur on statues or photos of Sai Baba, but rarely on a person's body.
According to Indian ancestral knowledge, the Kundalini energy is dormant in the body of every human being. It is located at the level of the “ Muladhara ” chakra (base of the trunk, just below the navel). It can be elevated through yogic practices to the “ Sahasrara ” Chakra (crown, top of the head). It is said that once the Kundalini energy is united with the Sahasrara Chakra, it creates a flow of Divine Nectar, called "Amrutha Varasha" which bathes and purifies the 72,000 energy nodes, the "nadis", of the human body. These nodes gain an unimaginable power and purity, and as they constantly irrigate the body with energy, the whole being is transformed.
In Vedic rituals called 'Pujas', Divinity is worshiped through a sacred bath offering of 16 steps called 'Shodasa Upacharas'. The divinity is offered water, milk, yogurt… then incense, a candle flame, an arathi… these stages of offerings are described in the 'Bhavanopanishad' (Verses 28 to 43) which is a sacred text telling the story of " Bhavani ", a form of the Divine Mother. Offering 'Snanam', the sacred bath described above, actually symbolizes this sacred Amrita bath and the process it awakens in the body for spiritual upliftment.
Swami Ajay : " What happened in my life is very, very strange. The manifestation on a human body is an event that occurred for the first time in Mauritius. It's fate, it's karmic. It is also a spiritual evolution, because suffering helps us to awaken our Kundalini and at that moment, the miracle happens. But it is not necessarily linked to our past life if we love God and suffer... "
Excerpts from books :
“The rise of Kundalini is hindered by several Granthis (heart), where Maya Shakti (the power of illusion) proves to be particularly potent. The texts evoke the Tri-granthi, the three knots of Brahma, Vishnu and Rudra, respectively located at the chakras of the abdomen, the throat and the head, which block the ascent of the serpent. Breaking these knots is like forcing hot steel through a bamboo pipe. The abdominal knot is the most difficult to cross, and its piercing causes great pain. ( “Eternal India” written by Richard Waterstone. P.95 Edition Albin Michel)
It is likely that Ajay experienced this very important event before the appearance of the divine manifestations, which would explain the absence of infection and disease. Many people, consciously or unconsciously, have also experienced these symptoms, which have prompted them to turn to spirituality. Whenever the individual directs all his thoughts towards God, he no longer opposes any resistance to the circulation of Kundalini and therefore, the pain disappears. But that does not detract from the exceptional character of Ajay's evolution, linked to the intervention of Sai Baba, because this phenomenon alone does not lead to supernatural powers. Few people would be able to carry out Ajay's work which requires an exceptional strength of character, along with deep humility and unfailing faith .
FIRST TRIP TO INDIA - January 1994
Swami Ajay : “ In January, the first week after returning from Rodrigues, on a Thursday morning Swami appeared again in his chair... I took a paper and he gave his last message. There was the manifestation on me and I felt weird... There are a hundred people behind me and I'm writing this message. Baba is very close to me, seated. What am I going to tell people ? That Baba is sitting on the chair ? Will people believe me ? …
But I continued to write what Baba told me: “ Now, you must come to Puttaparthi for Mahashivaratri and you must come with three people." That is to say a group of four, myself included. I can't believe it, things are happening so fast. I announced this message publicly and many people decided to come… I forgot Swami's message, I forgot everything. I only thought of the plane trip, the crossing of India, the prospect of seeing Baba in front of me and speaking to him. And we started to prepare for Mahashivaratri but there were things that we did not respect : the dates, the plane, the time of arrival in India, at Prashanti Nilayam , the time to enter the Ashram. Nothing was respected… The members of the Sri Sathya Sai organization in Mauritius were with me and I thought we were going to take the opportunity to have an interview. Finally, we left with twenty-two people. "
From February 22 to March 14, 1994 – Prashanti Nilayam
“ at that time, the Minister of Education stationed in Mauritius was a great devotee of Swami. When there were these manifestations, he came to see me. And when he went to Prashanti Nilayam, he talked about these phenomenons with a gentleman named Indulal Shah, because he was the one who brought the minister to Swami. And Swami talked with Indulal who then prepared 3 tickets. The first ticket was for me. The second ticket was for my aunt, and the third for my cousin who always stayed with me. So, the Minister brought the tickets to our house and he said : "There is a ticket for Mauritius - Mumbai, and a ticket for Mumbai - Bangalore. Swami will take care of everything. A car will pick you up in Bangalore and will take the three of you to Prashanti Nilayam. This is where you will stay now. " - But other people got involved and we didn't listen to his advices. "
Swami Ajay then undertook his first pilgrimage to Prashanti Nilayam, the main Ashram of Sathya Sai Baba, located in Puttaparthi in southern India. Like the thousands of faithful devotees present that day, he was able to attend Darshan and finally, he physically saw the one who appeared to him in visions ! When physically present, Sri Sathya Sai Baba used to circulate among the crowd daily, twice a day, to give Darshan ; that is, the vision of the Lord. He granted his blessings, gave advice, sometimes took devotee's letters and even invited a few lucky ones into the interview room. The prospect of going to Prashanti Nilayam fills Swami Ajay's heart… but things never go as planned and the journey was filled with tribulations.
“ Baba only said to come for Mahashivaratri and we arrived ten days before that holiday. So there was no problem for the date. He also specified to arrive in Puttaparthi before six o'clock, but we did not respect this schedule… We took the plane and there, the problems begun.
After much difficulty and discussion, we flew from Bombay to Bangalore. We arrived in Bangalore at 5:00 p.m. Swami had sent a car for me and three people only: the appointment was at 11:00 a.m., the car was there but as we arrived late, it was gone. The group members were discussing among themselves : “How are we going to get to Puttaparthi ?" and we decided to take taxis in Bangalore. We entered Puttaparthi from the back, with the transport, around 8:00 p.m. When I entered the ashram, Amrita started coming out of my body. We went to the reception for accommodation. When the accommodation person saw the Amrita, he said : “you must stay in your room." This is Swami, this is Swami's grace. He gave us the room and we stayed there. The next day, we went to Suprabhatam and then to darshan ; we made the lines to draw the numbers, it was my turn to draw and I drew number two. Among the ladies who had also come, they also drew number two. Everyone settled in the front line with their neckerchieves. We were well placed and we saw Swami passing by. Except that Swami came close to us…but he didn't look at us, at all. Neither me, nor the others. He just walked, and when he was close to me, he moved away from me. He didn't speak to us or answer anything. We saw Swami like that, but we didn't get a chance to touch his feet. He didn't look at us... he left. There was a person from the Mauritian organization who was with me and told me that I had to ask for interview. They explained to me that I should request an interview for twenty-two people, when Swami approaches me. The whole group was going to Darshan with a mauritian scarf around their necks, but Swami never came near us. We didn't have a chance to speak with Swami and ask for the interview. What happened during this Darshan shocked me a lot because it was the first time he was so close to me physically, in his form, in his own Ashram. And he didn't even smile at me, he didn't speak to me, he gave me no blessing, nothing.
… why ?
I asked Baba to be in my heart, I never decided to be that person, to go to Puttaparthi, to do all that. It was Swami who decided, so why all this pain and trouble ? I came to the conclusion that I was not a qualified enough person who knows Swami's reasonings and work. I had never decided to take the role that Swami assigned to me. My family was watching me and I felt all alone… After that day, we went back to the bedroom and there the problems got worse.
You know, when I saw Swami I thought it would be like home. Seeing Swami, touching his robe…but when you see him physically, it's not the same. And people started saying : “ If all the things that happened in Mauritius were true then why doesn't Swami come to you? Why didn't Swami see us ? Why did he leave ? Why is it that he didn't stop to speak to us ? Why didn't he talk to you ? "
Then, the criticism exploded :
- “ Everything you said is wrong, all are lies, it's all your fault. "
- “I will try to meditate here, to see if Swami is still with me. "
While I was meditating, people looked out the window and finally, they said that even the meditations were wrong. I then thought that I had nothing more to do at the ashram and with a few people present, we decided to leave - after much discussion and trouble. ”
BACK TO MAURITIUS – March 1994
“ Two days after I came back, in my sleep, I saw Baba. He was in his orange robe standing in front of me... It was the first time I saw Swami in a dream and he spoke to me in Creole ! He said : "Why did you leave ? What did you think ? That I was going to welcome you personally in my arms ? It's your ego. You are prepared like an instrument to do the job. Why do you crave for celebrity ? Do not seek name and fame. You left Puttaparthi after nine days and you think people will criticize you, but you are the one who created this situation. I told you to come with only three people, but you came with a lot more. The people who came with you could only stay fifteen, thirty or forty-five days, but you had a three-month visa. So what are you going to do now of these three months ?
I told you to come to Puttaparthi to teach you something. You didn't follow what I told you, you came with 22 people. You didn't respect anything. I asked you to come to Puttaparthi to explain to you, to show you what to do. You had a mission to do. The people who came with you had no mission. You had a job to do… so your mission begins now. But you are here, you are no longer in India... however, even as you are in Mauritius you will have to learn. So you will learn with suffering. You will learn all things with pain, through criticism and bad words. The mistake you made, you have to correct that mistake, since you left Puttaparthi. You didn't have belief or faith, you didn't have patience. I gave you everything for that faith to be strong, you saw me physically in your home but you didn't understand. You didn't use this learning with gifts and miracles in the right way. I wanted that for the lingam you were going to manifest, you would manifest it in my ashram with the energy of the ashram. But that lingam that you took out at the hotel, you suffered a lot for that and now, for all your life you will suffer when you will materialize a lingam. You will have to look for energy, the energy of the ashram will not be with you to surround your chakra. But your devotion will help you a lot. And since you had a visa for three months, you will now accomplish everything here in three months." (April, May, June 1994)
" Your family will reject you. The devotees around you will reject you. The people of your own country will reject you. You will realize that in the spiritual life, there is no attachment, there is only one thing that counts and that is the Love of God. An instrument has no family, an instrument has nothing. The instrument is only there to give. God is the one who gives and the one who takes back. From now on, I'm going to take all your powers back from you, you won't see me anymore and nothing more happens in you, neither manifestations, nothing, from now on. Your brothers will be against you from tomorrow. Your family will be against you, not everyone around you will trust you. You will be left alone – and if at the end of these three months you can still trust me, I will be there for you. "
Swami left, his message lasted about twenty minutes... The very next day, trouble started. The criticisms started very harshly with the family. The next day my brother came to tell me :
- “ You have to stop all this magic you have done, everything is wrong. All this vibhuti, you threw it on the photos yourself! It's magic ! People tell me that you have put honey on your head. You have to stop now. It only brought harm to the family. You have to start working again. "
- " But I can't work, I can't put on my clothes. "
- " That's not true, you have to stop! you have to go to work very quickly ”.
- " But my big brother, I will not be able to work. "
- " Who will feed you ? "
- “ Baba ” …
And then he continued : "Who is going to give you clothes ?" and I replied the same: "Baba will". I said Baba but I don't know what my future will be like, I don't know what my mission will be. I don't know what will happen. Despite everything, I said: " Baba will help me ". The family told me that nothing was real, that it was all magic tricks, that we had to stop the bhajans here and find another place to do them. I felt the tears welling up because I knew everything they were saying was false. Bhajans were established here and I didn't want to stop all these activities. I asked my aunty to forgive me if I had done something wrong and I said : “Give me 45 days to find a Bhajan Hall. In the meantime, continue the bhajans without disturbing the family environment, I will find a solution… give me some time !" I don't know how this 45 day story came out of my mouth but it just came like that, without thinking about it. What was I going to do during this time ? … And for three months – March, April and May – I had a lot of problems. I started looking for a land to build a Bhajan Hall, but couldn't find anything. For three months, I went to people's homes. I slept on the beach, devotees brought me food… just to spend these three months. I didn't do anything, I was thinking of going to Puttaparthi but for that I needed money. I stayed on the beach and in other places. And I stayed several days in my room, I only practiced meditation. Afterwards, money materialized itself... "
END OF THE ANGUISH ON A THURSDAY
" And when the three months were over, I came home. I still had a lot of problems all the while, with the family and with all the people. I was scared, very scared. I stayed in the room. I used to wake up very early in the morning for the Suprabhatam and one Thursday I didn't want to get up... the night before, I was in my room and asked Swami : “ why are all these things happening with me? It's because I love you, that's why ? I just wanted a place for bhajans. And this place was a garage… but with your Divine Grace, you gave me money through the lottery. And I made money, and by your divine grace I was able to build this building. Now we do the bhajans here. But if we have to stop everything, where to go? Please ! Do something… ” – and I started crying… all night I cried.
I did not wake up early that Thursday because I did not feel well to perform the prayers. I got up around 10 :00 and sat on my bed, terrified. “ What am I going to do now with all these problems ? All these people… And the miracles, why did it all stop ? I have no answer." I open the door slowly and go down quietly. The Bhajan hall is very close to my room. I just peeked my head in the room to receive Darshan, to receive Baba's blessing… and I saw a small package laying right in front of the picture of our beloved Swami's feet. I prostrated gently just to do 'Om Sai Ram' near Baba's chair. And I see that there really is a packet wrapped in white paper near Baba's feet… I took the packet and opened it. It was tied with a rubber band and I saw when I opened it that there was a lot of money in that package. I started counting that money… there was about 19 900 Rs, cash. Mauritian Rupees. I realized that the time was now over, that the three months were over and it was time to go to Puttaparthi near Baba. I felt it, it wasn't written or anything.
Who could have put the money here ? … I don't know. But I took it as a blessing. The money is there… I called the agency for the tickets : Mauritius-Bombay and Bombay-Bangalore and thanks to this money, I paid for my plane ticket to India, to Puttaparthi. The ticket, at that time, costed around Rs 9500. I bought this ticket and put Rs 2000 or 3000 in dollars which I exchanged to use them. I took $100 to go to Puttaparthi, and the rest of the money I used to buy utensils for the Bhajan Hall and carpets and mats for people to sit on, other utensils, a pair of microphones… Then I got ready to go to Puttaparthi. I sold some personal belongings, telling myself that if my stay went badly I wouldn't come back to Mauritius. With the rest of the money, I bought a small vial of poison. I thought that if I didn't find a way to continue Bhajans in Mauritius, I would go to northern India where I would commit suicide… I wanted to stay with Swami as long as I could afford it, then I would destroy my life. Not at Baba's place of course, but somewhere in India.
“ I don't want to bring any more harm to my family and all these people, if everything that happens is wrong then why should I stay for more sins ? "
So I took the poison with me too. Because I won't find the poison in India and I'll kill myself in India, so that my body remains there. I will stop by Swami's place and then leave for good. That's why I took very little money. If I failed, there was no need for me to come back to Mauritius to have even more problems. And finally, I took only 50 dollars for pocket money to go to India. I left the rest of the money with Maurice and left. "
CHILDHOOD
from 1969 to 1990's
HIS ILLNESS
1989 - 1993
MIRACLES
year 1993
THE BEGINNINGS
years 1994 - 95
THE BHAJAN HALL
1996 - 2000
ASSIGNMENT
since 1997
These articles are reduced versions of the full story.
In this biographical collection, several works are quoted in chronological order, trying to reconstruct Swami Ajay's life story. It is important to understand that this does not replace the reading of original resources, which take on a whole different approach.
A VISION BEFORE LEAVING FOR DELHI
“After Baba ignored me, I had visions before leaving the ashram. While I was wondering why things happened like this, someone said to me : “ Do you want to meet Swami ? " I said yes and he suggested that I go and sit in front of the wooden door of Poornachandra. I didn't know at the time that it was forbidden. And I sat down in front of that door. Five minutes later, I saw Swami in his orange robe, on the balcony above me. He was beckoning me to enter. I pushed open the door of the Poornachandra, walked forward, took one step… then two, then three. And suddenly, I saw Swami in a white robe, sitting as Shiva used to sit : on a beautiful tiger skin. I was standing and Swami was 4 meters away from me, but between the moment he called me from the balcony and the moment I saw him in front of me, it was only five to six seconds… how come he changed his robe in such a short time ? … When I entered the room, I started to cry and I put in the tiger's mouth the letters that devotees had entrusted to me. Baba closed his eyes and I tried to put my foot on the tiger skin but I couldn't, I stayed off the mat. I knelt down and said nothing. I realized that two of the letters were back in my hand, I hadn't forgotten to give them, but they had returned from the pile I had placed on the carpet. I was surprised, who put those letters back in my hand ? How did Swami do that ? …
Now, I felt things coming out of Baba's head and entering mine. Loads of messages went through my head and caused a lot of pain, as if my head was going to burst. The room I was in had no roof, there was no light, just smoke, like a fog. I also saw a sky with moving curtains and a very long vertical iron, which was lost in the fog and had no beginning or end. Papers were stuck in this iron, tidy,, and I understood that they were letters written by people to Swami. He keeps all the letters. When it is not possible to solve the problem mentioned therein and when people leave their bodies, the letters also leave with them... When the interview was over, I left. Outside, someone asked me : "What are you doing here ?" … I told him that Swami had called me and he replied : “It is impossible, you are telling lies. Swami is giving darshan right now in the mandir. »
It was 4:15 p.m. and I had entered at 2:15 p.m., so two hours had passed… Very few people can explain that, but it was this interview with Baba that gave me the energy to do the work despite all the problems. I had never seen Swami in this form before, the same as in the picture of Shiva which I had placed in the old Bhajan Hall. "
GOING TO DELHI
" Our stay in Puttaparthi had lasted only eight days and all these events took place before Mahashivaratri (March 10 and 11). I thought of Swami and addressed Him thus: “I don't want to stay in Puttaparthi, I want to leave. " The day of departure, a Thursday, I was reading the thought of the day that was displayed. I said to myself : “Swami, I cannot wait for darshan because we have to leave, we have already taken our tickets. If possible, I would like to have your darshan but I don't know how. " It was less than eight o'clock, the devotees were lining up for darshan when I suddenly saw Swami arriving in his car. I joined my hands and bowed before Him. Baba raised his right hand in my direction. What a relief : He had forgiven me and now I could leave for Delhi, with half the group following me. The others stayed at Prashanti Nilayam. "