A DEEP TRANSFORMATION
1993 - 1994
MEANING OF AMRITA
Swami Ajay: " When a liquid comes out of a statue without explanation, it is called Amrita and it testifies the presence of God. It is there to help us, to show us something because God cannot come physically. People interpret it that way. For myself, I had simply asked Baba to show me his presence.
We started the bhajan sessions from that day. The materialization of Amrita continued for a week. Everyone was happy with this event. We were busy all day because a lot of people were coming. I continued my work… I continued my life normally. But I knew that God is now in my heart. It's no longer useful for me to go to so many temples now.
I no longer feel the need to look up to the sky and ask “God, where are you?" or to go to different places to pray.
I know Baba is there.
We just have to keep working, now. Because… “ you have to become someone. You have to make money to be someone. It's not sufficient to have God. Devotion is in the place of prayers, that's good, but material and social life too, must improve. (this is what society expects.)
Afterwards, in December, on the eighth day of the manifestations, the group told my brother that we were going to hold the first Suprabhatam and a procession in our village. My brother was very involved in the organization of this procession. The Suprabhatam is a special prayer that is performed in the morning, just to wake up God. Nagarsankirtan is a form of Bhajans where people walk down the street. Just to purify the place and the environment. So, for the first time, Suprabhatam and Nagarsankirtan will be performed at Rivière du Rempart.
On the other hand, at my work, all my friends were having a picnic. It was a Saturday and the Suprabhatam followed by the procession was programmed on Sunday. I had decided to go on a picnic with my friends. My brother and other people wouldn't let me go, but I went anyway. ”
ASTROLOGICAL PREDICTIONS
" My life was described in the great sacred text which is called the Jyotisha. It is a book of Hindu astrology which the Brahmin priests receive for 500, 300 or 200 years. Priests come from India to offer this book as a gift to unqualified priests, to help us continue our work. This book specifies what we were in our past life and what we have come to do in this life. This book said that my life would be very short and that I would have to leave after a serious illness. But, this book also said that if I managed to obtain divine Grace, God would come to help me to continue living.
It's the same for everyone : a big problem should happen around thirty-five years for example, but if you manage to overcome this problem you will have the Grace to continue living. In Mauritius, we already know what kind of problems our children are going to have, when they are still infants, and we start to prepare them : we teach them to practice rituals that will protect them until the age of ten, then we prepare other types of rituals for them until the age of eighteen and others until the age of twenty-five. Then, the child will have enough qualities to continue his devotional life alone. "
GOING BACK TO NORMAL LIFE - 1993
After almost two years of suffering culminating in divine healing, Ajay returns to his position as an attorney clerk in his brother's office in 1993. His heart filled with gratitude to Shirdi Baba who granted him healing, he continues to say his prayers... The nature of the work has changed, the laws have been amended but he nevertheless manages to catch up. Life goes back to normal… at least for a while.
“Mo ti pe dir moi ki sa travay la pa ti mo simin. Mo ti pe anvi aide mo prochain”
(Mauritian Creole: “ I can say that this work is not my way of life. I want to help my neighbor. ”)
“I was an attorney clerk and I took care of the papers for the clients. As in France, the lawyer and the assistant work together. I did all the administrative work for the files that were going to be presented to the court. This work required experience and I was surprised to see that I have not lost any of my knowledge despite a year of absence. At that moment, I felt that: “I know this work even better than before!" and I started to work in a very professional way. Any task that I received at the office, I carried it out correctly, appropriately. Without any fear. I even went to court without any fear… I discussed things with my friends without any fear in me. I even brought work home from the office… and so, God helped me. I can even say that it is as if I had never missed these 1 year and a half. Along with my health, God also gave me the knowledge and even more than that, to work properly... To do things really well.
But something else also happened in my life: I started talking more about God with all my friends.
At that time, my friends nicknamed me: “ Pundit ”.
“Pundit” means “priest”. “Pundit” means “one who is able to help others." In any form: by explanations… and like that, all my friends called me by this name: “Pundit”. I started giving answers. By explaining to them a little bit about prayers, etc. : it came naturally. And while I was working, I didn't really pay attention to the fact that I knew all these things. They asked me questions and I just gave the answers… besides, at that time, I myself didn't know if the answers I gave were good or not. I just express what I felt, because I knew that by simply talking with them I gave them what I have already put into practice in my life! I knew this was the right way to do it. If they do it this way, something will happen to them too! It's like a shortcut for them, so they just need to trust what I gave. And my life started to transform like that. "
(Swami Ajay, 2011)
RENOVATION OF A GARAGE NEAR HIS AUNT'S HOUSE
“I had been back to work for three months when I bought a lottery ticket.
I prayed to Baba saying to myself: “If Baba wants it, I will win the lottery."
At that time, I did not know Sathya Sai Baba, only Shirdi Sai Baba. Returning from work in the fields located behind the house, I noticed that the newspaper with the result of the lottery was on my bed. After checking, I discovered that my ticket was a winner and it brought me 20,000 rupees. With this money, I renovated a garage near my aunt's house and I did some religious ceremonies. I started by placing all the objects because I thought it needed a prayer room right away. I finished the house, bought all the furniture and my bed. I placed the statue of Shirdi Baba and every day after my work, I talked with Him. "
“During the week, I had a lot of work. But I was free from Friday to Sunday and so, I drank a lot of beers because I started drinking when I was sick. During my illness, I no longer knew how to remedy my pain and people told me: “You have to drink and sleep. If you get drunk, you will manage to sleep." So I spoke about this problem to Shirdi Baba: "give me the strength to stop drinking. It is You who will decide. If You want to, please do something so that I can stop drinking."
I could control myself on weekdays, but on weekends I was distraught.
I didn't socialize with people, I stayed in my room, at home...
Every day, I said my prayer. At that time, I did not know what prayer was. But my aunt explained the mantra to me and I always thanked Baba.
"Oh! It was You who cured me Baba…". And every day I did like that, then went back to work. The more I did my work the more I noticed that I had knowledge and energy to work. I learned a lot in a very short time with my brother. I had more responsibilities and I made the effort to do this job well. Previously, when I worked with my brother, I also became a priest because it brought in money. At that time, I worked as a substitute in the Temple and I sometimes performed weddings when the priest was absent. But afterwards, Swami explained to us that it was not enough to be a priest, but that we had to try to become Love. "
A STRANGE WEARINESS ...
As time passes by, his devotion grows… along with his faith. He performs daily meditation from 1:15 a.m. to 3:25 a.m. Mid-October 1993, Ajay - who likes his work - feels a strange weariness on Monday mornings and does not go to study. Soon, this inexplicable fatigue invades him on Tuesdays as well and he stays at home for two consecutive Tuesdays. However, on the third Tuesday, his professional conscience prevails and he goes to work. Shortly before, following a discussion with one of his friends who doubted the Divinity of Shirdi Sai Baba, young Ajay begins to pray in front of the statue, asking Shirdi Baba to show him his presence in his home. He knows very well that he was cured by Shirdi Baba, thanks to his Vibhuti… But he wants to have a confirmation that Shirdi Baba is still present by his side. A little confused, Ajay starts to speak with the statue.
Swami Ajay: “The most striking thing happened when a friend of mine started discussing about forms.
"Forms" means: Since I healed myself by the grace of our beloved Shirdi Baba, I placed all my faith in him. But before, I was a devotee of Shiva. Then, with what happened, I put all my belief in Shirdi Baba. And the only statue I had in my prayer room was Shirdi Baba. So for me, everything was Shirdi Baba, Shirdi Baba and Shirdi Baba… For me, when I came home, he was my friend. I spoke with him: “Sai Ram Baba, Sai Ram Baba."
Because now, I know my whole life is for him. There's nothing left for me, no. It's all up to him… I'll do whatever he wants me to do. I don't even know how this love came in me… I never loved anyone like I started to love Shirdi Baba. And I don't know how it happened or what happened. Anyway, a friend of mine starts talking about forms because my friend was a devotee of Krishna. He was part of the ISKCON (“Hare Krishna”) organization. And I was… well, I can't really say that I was a 'devotee' of Shirdi Baba but I loved Shirdi Baba. And I didn't belong to any organization then, because I didn't even know what that means, to be part of an organization. But I loved Shirdi Baba… and he was talking about Krishna but he did not believe in Shirdi Sai Baba's miracles.
I said to him each and every time: " How is it possible that you don't believe me ? I believe in Krishna, I believe in everything you tell me. Why don't you want to believe me ? You know, my aunt explained to me that the fire is still there in India, there is the sacred ash which is vibhuti, and I really healed with this grace thanks to vibhuti. How can you say that it does not exist ? "
BABA, ARE YOU HERE IN MY HOUSE?
“ The first discussion with my friend was on November 20, 1993.
I came home after work, I put my bag in my room and sat by the statue of Shirdi Baba. I said, “ O Baba… please help me. I know you are here. I know you have already done so much for me. I know you healed me. I have placed all my belief in you, Baba… but just one thing… please do it for me. I want to know. Are you here in my house or not ? … are you God? Are you someone special for me, in my life, or not? ... Not for everyone, Baba… because I love you. You know I can't live without you. You know you are my friend. You know very well that every day when I come home, I talk to you. Because you are not just a statue, you are a living person for me. "
“ Why am I telling you all this Baba ? ... it's because you know everything. All that happened. All the discussions. It's just that I want to confirm for myself that you are indeed here, Baba. Because I am a human being. I don't even really know why I'm asking all these things. I don't know why I want all these answers. Please do something for me Baba. Do something. I don't know what to do… what my heart wants, please, is for you to do something just to let me know deep in my heart that you are indeed here with me. You are God... I have already surrendered myself at your Lotus feet. Baba…if you see that what I am offering to you is real and sincere… if you think that all I have inside is really pure, then please do something."
“On the 21st, in the morning, I got up and went to work. I then went home and the same discussion took place at noon: when I came back I talked with Baba again. The same thing happened on the morning of the 22nd. Now, on the 22nd, when I was done working, I joined my friends and that same friend started talking very loudly. In this conversation, this person… I felt like he was challenging me a bit. He didn't accept what I was saying. He remained on his positions saying that “what I pray for is worth nothing." Saying that I have to change everything, and I have to accept Shri Krishna as the Supreme God.
I told him: “yes, why not… but everyone has the right to choose. I accept Shri Krishna as the Supreme God... for you. But for me, it's not over. ” I said that just as to close the debate. But in my heart, it was not over. I wanted answers… and at 2:00 p.m. I left the office and went home. I was quite sad when I got home and I thought about this discussion all night. I already knew at the time of the discussion that it was not necessary for me to prove or to make someone accept what I felt, because I am already sure within. But for myself, it was very important that I should know if the statue and form of Shirdi Baba was really God, after he healed me. So now, the question was: “ Is he God or not? " - But just for me, not for everyone.
At that time, I didn't feel very well: I felt a bit sad. I came home and put my bag in the bedroom. I sat in front of the Shirdi Baba statue and started crying… I cried from about 4:00 p.m. to 6:00 p.m. I said: “Why??? why are you doing all this to me? I know it's impossible for you to do something… but yet, you did something great for me! All those things that you accomplished too, it was impossible. But you did it!! You made them possible. You have fulfilled everything for me. I ask you a little thing. Just do something to make me feel like you're here. Just for me ! I know You are there but please, show me Your presence. Show me that You are not only the statue, that You are also the life breath, that you are alive. Why do these people talk about You like that, why don't they believe in You? Why don't they accept what You do? It is not important for all these people but it is for me, as I have a lot of belief in You…”
I said to Baba, “ so many things are happening in the world… it is really difficult for me to understand the form of God. And yet, it's very easy for me to concentrate on you because you're there…” - that was the evening of November 22. I still did not know Sathya Sai Baba, I knew that my older brother Oudaye sang bhajans with a group but I thought it was for Shirdi, not for Sathya Sai Baba, as he never told me about it. I did not know that Swami's birthday was November 23rd. My brother knew this because he was a devotee of Baba. And the next morning (November 23) when I returned to the prayer room, I said: "Baba, I am going to work and I know that my friend is going to ask me a lot of questions. I'll have to give a lot of answers so Baba, do something."
At the office, I thought “What are you going to do for me? I am waiting for You, in the evening, I am waiting for You to give me an answer." - I just wanted an answer, without knowing how. At work, I kept thinking, “ I'm going to go home and Baba is going to give me something, Baba is going to give me something."
After work, at 2:00 p.m., I met my friend and then returned home in the afternoon. When I got home from work around four o'clock, I put my bag down, I didn't want to eat, I was a little sad inside myself so I went in the bedroom. I just sat in front of Shirdi Baba silently. I did not ask anything. I just sat down and cried. And then, my Auntie called me and she said “ come to eat."
That day, my auntie was alone with her mother who had come to visit her, as her children had gone out. I turned off all the lights in my room, closed the door and went to eat with them. I went to the kitchen and the food was in front of me... there too, I started crying.
- My aunt said to me: “why are you crying? "
- I replied: “ I don't know… I feel sad inside. "
I was crying… and my aunty's mom, she loved me very much. It was really hard for me to eat so I said to my auntie: “ I'll eat later." Then, at around seven o'clock, I asked my Aunt's mother if she wanted to see the Ramayana film. She said 'yes', so I went to my room just to get the Ramayana movie. "
NEWS OF THE MIRACLE SPREAD ON THE ISLAND
At the time of the manifestation on the statue of Shirdi Sai Baba, Ajay did not yet know Shri Sathya Sai Baba - and he did not know that this miracle fell exactly on the date of his birthday, November 23rd... he then discovered that Sathya Sai Baba was actually the reincarnation of Shirdi Sai Baba.
“ My auntie then called my brother. He was devotee of Baba before all that.
This happened on November 23 at around 7:30 p.m. And he was celebrating the birthday of our beloved Bhagawan Shri Sathya Sai Baba in a center… as he was not at home, his wife who answered the phone, saying: “he is not here."
“Meanwhile, two people came to see the miracle and half an hour later, Oudaye arrived with his friends to look at Swami's materializations. They stopped the session very early to come here as a group, to see Swami's darshan. He brought the whole group, everyone, at home - so he could continue the birthday of beloved Bhagawan Shri Sathya Sai Baba where the manifestations took place. It was on that day that he explained everything to us about Baba's birthday. And one of the people also brought a little picture of Sathya Sai Baba. It was a photo calendar.
That's when my brother said to me: “you know, today is Sathya Sai Baba's birthday, November 23”.
But I did not take that into consideration, I only knew that I had received an answer to my prayer... They started doing Bhajans, because this type of miracle was happening for the first time on the island. Miracles had already taken place, but I don't know exactly what type of miracles. I believe that this type of manifestation was really happening for the first time. For me, anyway, it was the first time and it transformed me a lot... this event gave me so much belief and faith in the idea that God is not far from us: he is so close, right there. This manifestation gave me a lot of encouragement to transform myself internally and to have more transformation within myself.
After fifteen minutes, the tray was full. The honey then stopped flowing, but as soon as I removed some of the content the statue oozed again to fill the tray to the brim. My aunty and my brother asked me to do it myself because it happened at my house. We shared the Amrita with many people, thousands of people received it… Each time I emptied the tray, it filled up again without ever overflowing. People started coming from all over Mauritius. We did kirtans until two or three in the morning. "
From then on, the house was always full of people. Mauritians come from all over to pray. Throughout the week, from November 23 to 30, 1993, the Amrita flowed from the statuette and this Nectar was distributed in quantity without ever overflowing.
Many people witnessed the miracle and two people recounted their experiences in the book “ De Sai au soi ”.
At that time, the miracle was covered by the local press. You can find the newspaper articles as well as the testimonies related to these events.
“So many people came to receive Darshan… from all over Mauritius. Even the Sai Organization and their president, secretary, etc. They came to see the Divine manifestations. Gradually, people started hearing about the miracle and they started coming. Every day, there was bhajans. We started in the morning around 11:00 until the evening at 10:00 or 11:00. No time to eat, no time to be with the family… all day, people came from all over the country. All types of religions: even Muslims and Christians have come to receive this Divine Darshan. All that happened but I continued to work, I didn't quit my job because I had to continue working. I was planning to get married at that time but the miracles continued and many devotees came... ”
INNER REVELATION BEGINS
“So, I left for the picnic. It was a special program for the last day of work. We left to visit several places but once we left, I didn't feel well. And my friends had prepared what I had always wanted to eat. They prepared KFC and so many other things. I had never eaten these things before but I said: “I would like to."
So they prepared all these things that I always wanted to eat. They put them in front of me. The beer is here…
My friends liked me because I was someone who can make them happy, in the group. I organized dance sessions, I sang, all that. Just to cheer up the group, just to make them laugh… but this time, I was different. I felt alone. A strange thing was happening to me. They brought all these things in front of me, and when everything was there it was very difficult for me: I can't do it. I really didn't feel good about eating. Even drinking that beer… I can't touch it.
I started crying. These friends called me “Ram”:
- “Ram? ... Why are you crying? … "
- And I answered: “ I don't know. I don't know why I am crying. Leave me alone in the bus, in silence. "
My friends had gone to visit the gardens and I was left alone in the bus with a can of beer, but I couldn't drink it, I didn't know what was happening to me. And I asked this question to my heart: "what is going on inside of me? I asked God for his presence but not for sadness. Why does it happen like this? Why can't I eat? Why can't I drink?" And when my friends came back, they found me really funny because it was not my habit to do that. At the time, I don't know what is going on inside me, I feel overwhelmed. I was crying without knowing why.
And I said to them: “ Please call a taxi, I want to go home. Now." - It was around 2 p.m. Because to go to Port-Louis, then to the place… it took some time and then all that happened. I got home around 4:00 p.m. I saw that my brother was preparing everything. "
2nd EPISODE OF DIVINE MANIFESTATIONS - The photos manifest
“Before going to the picnic, I had placed on the bed of my room three photos that a friend had framed. They were two photos of Swami given to me by the President of the Sathya Sai Organization and a portrait of Shirdi given to me by a friend. I didn't go straight home, I took my bath at my auntie's house and changed my clothes first. Around 8:30 p.m., I returned to my house and the Bhajans were already over.
Once I got home, I went near the altar in the prayer room. I watched my big brother, my aunt, my sister-in-law decorating the whole place with flowers and the pictures for the Suprabhatam on Sunday, and the procession. I told my brother :
- " you know, my brother? All these pictures here... don't bless them with water. Because if you put water on the photos to bless them, materializations will appear on these photos and it's not a good idea because it will make the house dirty."
- "But it is good! If they are blessed and Vibhuti comes out, or Amrita comes out, everyone can benefit! Wait, how do you know that it will happen? "
- “I don't know, it comes by itself. "
- " Are you sure ? »"
- “Yes, I don't know why but we are going to bless these photos and there will be manifestations on them. There will be a lot of honey and it will damage the house."
- "But you shouldn't look at things like that...it's good if the materializations happen. It's a message. It will inspire people, so you have to bless these photos."
Then, he sprinkled the photos and I obeyed them by doing prayers. No more than four or five seconds after starting, the honey came out of the pictures.
Photos started to materialize Amrita and Vibhuti. All kinds of Vibhuti… in different colors. "
SHIRDI BABA ANSWERS HIS PRAYERS
“ When I went back in my room to take the film, I hadn't yet turned on the light when I saw the statue shining in the darkness. With a halo of light around his head. And I felt my heart beating very hard.
“how it shines! What's going on ?"
In the darkness, I saw that the statue was shining. The distance between her and me was about 5 or 6 meters, approximately. I got closer… little by little… and at that precise moment, I felt something happening inside me. A great joy, but also fear… all this at the same time in me. But I still approached little by little. The light was coming out of the statue. My heart was beating faster. I stood like this for two minutes and wondered, " what is this? " and didn't immediately walk over to the statue, because I was thinking: “ If I approach the statue, the light may disappear. "
I watched for a while longer, then slowly approached. And I felt something happening inside my body. As I get closer and closer, I notice that honey is dripping off the statue. He was covered in honey… The liquid was coming out and falling on the carpet - I sat there for five minutes watching this phenomenon. Despite everything, there are always doubts. I started to look at the statue from all sides, behind, below... the honey was flowing. I started to cry very hard .
I took the statue in my hands just to see what was happening. “ Is there something wrong with this statue? " ... As I found nothing, I put the statue on the table while crying: "thank you Baba. Thank you… you are really there. I have heard of your miracles, but what you are showing me is extraordinary, now I am sure that you are there. I was sure you were there before, yes, but what you gave me confirmed that you are here in my heart, in my home. I had no doubts on that but I'm happy because my prayer is fully answered, everything I asked you in my prayer is there. I know that I now have a path to follow, because there are many people who take several paths and get lost. That's why I asked you for a sign, to know if what I'm doing with you is right. Now, I have the confirmation that all the prayers that I make are good and that they will bring me to you. It will help me to become better, it will help me to explain everything to my friends. I am very happy. "
I then wondered what to do. Should the family be informed, yes or no? ... Because without my permission, no one came into the house. I cleaned everything myself and always closed the doors before going out. Eventually, I decided to tell my aunty that the honey was dripping from the statue as it was her who made me know all this, it was thanks to her that I knew all these manifestations, and the devotion that I had was also thanks to her.
I went down: “Come up ! See what is happening in my room on the statue of Shirdi. "
When they arrived in the room, my aunty started crying very loudly: “ Look, Baba is giving us Darshan. "
She then put a tray under the statue of Shirdi Baba and the Amrita – this honey, we call it Amrita – started flowing continuously. "
All the people started to be happy but as for myself, I didn't feel well, I felt something funny deep in my heart. So I said that and then I went to my room, just to be a bit quiet. They were preparing everything... Around 11:00 p.m., I came out of my room and my brother asked me:
- “The statue that is in the small tray, there is Amrita coming out of it but the quantity is not enough. We need to change this tray and put the statue in a bigger tray, so more Amrita can flow. "
- " it's not a good idea. nothing should be changed, something could happen. "
But he insisted. As I respect him a lot, I didn't dare say "no". So he changed it… He transferred the small tray to a large tray, completely, with the statue. And all of a sudden the Amrita stopped flowing. It stopped showing up from the statue. Now, everyone started to be scared…
“Tomorrow,the first Suprabhatam and the first procession are going to take place and it has stopped. What are people going to say? ”
Everyone started asking me what to do. I said, “I don't know!! that's why I said not to disturb that statue. But you insisted."
All of that happened and now it was around 11:30 p.m. "
3rd EPISODE - Honey comes out of my body
Amrita began to flow on Ajay's body the same evening...
“All this was happening on Saturday, what were we going to tell people? I didn't know.
I went to my room and at that time, when I was sleeping, I used to put on shorts only. So I had nothing else on my body except my shorts and I laid down to sleep. I started feeling something hot going on in my body, but I was sleeping. And at the same time, I felt heat emanating from my body. I stood up and stood in front of the mirror. I feel something like honey dripping from my head. From my ears. From my nose, everywhere… and the honey is sweating through every pore of my body. It was around 1:50 a.m. I started crying. I rushed to my auntie, who was in her kitchen getting ready for tomorrow, doing the dishes.
When she saw me in this state, she said:
- " what happened to you ?! "
- I answered: “What is happening to me?? Look ! What is happening to me ? "
- She said: “Okay, quickly go take a bath!! "
It annoyed me a lot, it was leaking through my ears, my nose, all over my body. So I went to the bathroom and washed myself. When I came out, more honey again! So I went back a second time. Even more honey coming out, much more than before. I took two baths, but the phenomenon continued. I run and it manifested, twice as much, so I ran to take another bath to clean myself up and it dripped more and more all over my body. My body is sweating, I can't put on clothes. The third time, more and more honey is flowing from my body! And I don't know what to do.
I asked my Auntie: “now, what to do? look what's going on with my body. There is honey coming out of everywhere.” - She covered me with an orange shawl.
I went to my room, I sat like Shirdi Baba. I didn't know that but I felt comfortable in this position so I put my leg on the other leg and I remembered this person who had said to me at the time: "Now you must recite 'Om Sai Ram'." - Because at the beginning, when the miracles started, a man came and said to me: “You know, you have to start doing Japa of 'Om Sai Ram'. " And then, I remembered. So I took my Japamala (rosary) and started to recite: ' Om Sai Ram, Om Sai Ram, Om Sai Ram. ' – very fast. With a lot of fear. Very quickly, so that the Amrita would stop flowing.
After about twenty minutes and for the first time in my life, I saw Bhagawan Shri Sathya Sai Baba physically in his white robe.
He was standing in front of me, smiling. And he was gesturing with his hands.
“I don't know how He got into the room, but when I opened my eyes, I saw Swami in front of me smiling. My eyes were open when I saw Swami walking. I tried to touch her dress and my aunt was near me, I said to her: “Look, Look! Baba is here!!!! and for the first time in my life, too, when I saw Swami, I immediately called out to him: “Swami! " … I had never heard of that name. I knew: “Baba”. It was the first time that I called him “Swami”.
And I said to my Aunt who was near me:
- “Aunty, look, Baba is here!!!!”
- " where ?! "
-"right there ! "
But she didn't see him. And then I said : “ look below, Amrita comes out of the ground… where the Amrita comes out of the ground, there are Swami's feet! "
And there was really Amrita coming out of the ground. Where Swami was standing. And then, Swami took my right hand… He grabbed my two fingers and I stood up. He walked. He let go of my hand and I started to walk like a baby... where he walked, Amrita came out of the ground. Like footprints. And he went straight to the statue of Shirdi Baba. I saw Swami's life-size form shrinking and getting very small. And once he had shrunk completely, he approached the statue of Shirdi Baba and integrated himself into it. He melted into this statue of Shirdi Baba. From there, the Amrita began to flow again… once more.
I went back to the bathroom to take a bath… after that, the pouring of Amrita on my body stopped. It was around 2:30 in the morning. I went back to sleep. I went to bed crying and fell asleep crying. My brother came around 4:00 in the morning. My aunt explained everything to him. He came to my room to wake me up and when I woke up, I suddenly said to my brother : " Who are you ? Why are you here ? What is my name ? … "
And I felt something very strange happening inside me. For a few moments, I forgot my home, my family. It took me about two hours to remember everything. But I felt something. I felt that when I walked, my feet did not touch the ground. Every time, I would cry! I felt like something was missing in me. Something left my body. And when the group of Bhajans came, they did the Suprabhatam. After the Suprabhatam, they prepared for the Nagarsankirtan and I saw Swami in front of me, in front of everyone. He accompanied them for Nagarsankirtan but I felt like Swami was leaving me! And I say to my Auntie: “ Baba is leaving me! Baba leaves! Swami walks away from me! ” as I was crying. The manifestations started rolling over my body again... I took a piece of cloth and wrapped myself in it. From then on, I no longer used my clothes. It was the first time that I wore a shawl and until now, I can only wear this type of clothing: I was already using this piece of fabric to say my prayers, there was only that in my little bedroom. As the honey ran down my body, I couldn't find anything else to cover myself with. Since then, my body only accepts this type of cloth, cotton material.
The honey was flowing and when they came back from Nagarsankirtan, I saw Swami coming back. At that time, in the prayer room, there was no chair for Swami. But that day, a great transformation happened in me… I was completely transformed. Amrita was flowing from the top of my head, from everywhere…and I felt connected to another world. Something… I was getting some kind of special energy. An energy that just makes me want to 'sleep'. I just want to close my eyes and I don't want to see anyone. I want to be… quiet. In a corner. It was very hard to go back to work after that... I had to give up work, clothes, everything. I found myself very ridiculous. What to do ?
People come every day to ask questions. They say that Swami does not manifest on anyone. What can I answer them?
“He doesn't speak through anyone. He has no middleman. "
"But then, what's happening through me....what is it then?" Are these bad things, are these devils? "
And I didn't know what explanation to give. Swami was in front of me and I managed to touch his robe but it was impossible to explain to people. Because they did not believe me. I was writing what Swami was telling me but people didn't believe me. The manifestations in the photos, people can't believe it.
It is beyond many people's understanding. "
Why such manifestations?
Swami Ajay explains: “What happened in my life is very, very strange. The manifestation on a human body * is an event that occurred for the first time in Mauritius. It's fate, it's karmic. It is also a spiritual evolution, because suffering helps us to awaken our Kundalini and at that moment, the miracle happens. But it's not necessarily related to our past life, if we love God and we suffer..."
* Vibhuti (sacred ash) and Amrita materialize themselves on the physical body of Swami Ajay, on certain occasions and especially during his meditations. These manifestations are unusual as they usually occur on statues or pictures of Sai Baba...
(more explanations in the complete version in PDF format, at the bottom of the page).
A NEW WORLD OPENS ITS DOORS
“I had no control over the manifestations, it just happened. Even Vibhuti… and at that time I didn't know what meditation is.
But it came to me automatically. I said to my aunty: “ I want to go meditate."
Actually, I used the word “meditation” but I didn't even know what it meant. As it was necessary to give an explanation to my aunt, I said to her:
“ I go to meditate in my room… but after an hour and a half, you come just to wake me up by touching me. And like that, I will come back. "
As I would sit in my personal room, Vibhuthi manifested on my body. And from everywhere on my body, Amrita dripped down. Amrita and Vibhuti were mixing on my body. At that moment, during meditation, I felt that something was leaving my body and going somewhere else. Like a bird flying, in the same way. At that time, I had no knowledge of 'Atma' ...
I just felt something leaving my body and flying… I felt cool, I felt calm. And from there, I had visions: lots of birds… lots of lights. Green landscapes, beautiful things, so many stars… Each time, I saw a lot of stars. Green leaves, trees… lots of birds flying with angels and little dots of light everywhere. And in the distance, a golden gate. 2 golden doors, closed. One of these doors alone is approximately two meters by ten meters, closed. And I stopped there because we don't have the right to go beyond that. I returned to my body and when I opened my eyes, I saw my Tati, my auntie who was in front of me, because she had come to wake me up…"
“And when I regained consciousness, I saw that there were plenty of Vibhuti on my body. Everywhere. On my head, in my ears… Vibhuti is coming out everywhere. I feel very weird in my body. I covered myself with the cloth and left the room. I wasn't scared, because at that moment I just felt like I wanted to sit down, just to feel calm inside. I just wanted to be silent. I just wanted to sit quietly and not talk to anyone. Do nothing. And when I sitted like that, there were things that happened to me, things happened. Everytime.
Even now, it happens. But I don't let those things out freely, because I'm not prepared for that type of meditation. Sometimes, when I'm tired, I retreat to the room just to be quiet in a corner. So, at that time, all that was happening. "
CHILDHOOD
from 1969 to 1990's
HIS ILLNESS
1989 - 1993
MIRACLES
year 1993
THE BEGINNINGS
years 1994 - 95
THE BHAJAN HALL
1996 - 2000
ASSIGNMENT
since 1997
These articles are reduced versions of the full story.
In this biographical collection, several works are quoted in chronological order, trying to reconstruct Swami Ajay's life story. It is important to understand that this does not replace the reading of original resources, which take on a whole different approach.